Open Letter Regarding Clifford Ludeña/Meyer

Summary of Harm

Clifford has admitted to lying, manipulating, gaslighting, cheating all previous romantic partners. He has admitted to emotional and sexual abuse and sexual coercion. Thriving in secrecy, he has committed severe abuse against the emotions and bodies and lives of sexual and romantic partners/ involvements.

This website contains an overview of his methods of abuse and manipulation. You can find a collection of stories from those that were comfortable sharing. These sadly barely crack the surface of voices, unified in their hurt, that have contributed their perspectives..

Clifford grew up in Marana/Tucson AZ, where all of his family still lives. In the spring of 2023, shortly after the public call out with primarily local reach, he relocated to Santa Fe, New Mexico. Our understanding through various connections in the area is that he is continuing this same level of abuse through the small community of Santa Fe. Multiple people have expressed predatory behavior and issues interacting with him; that he continues to be sexually and psychologically abusive.

Previously in Santa Fe he worked with a rafting company and a coffee shop. Currently he is a student at the community college and works for a wood shop. He is attempting to meet people from whatever means are available to him on the daily.

He is a serious predator that gets pleasure from compulsively inflicting physical and emotional pain on his victims. He gets off on causing his victims fear, pain and humiliation. His goal is to make each person completely psychologically dependent on him. He isolates and breaks them down to the point that they will endure constant sexual abuse so he can act out his violent fantasies without a fight or accountability. This is not sex addiction this is psychopathy. His aim is to break down your psychology and hurt and abuse your body. The abuse has led multiple victims close to suicide and caused severe mental and physical health issues in his victims. We are highly concerned for any person who is connected to him.

His identity now is based around being in recovery from sex addiction that revolves around cheating in the past. The framework is that his harms are of the past and he has moved on and healed. Which plays well into his long term approach to create a power dynamic where the person affected needs his help being fixed and the pain experienced in the relationship is him helping create growth.

Notes on Transformative Justice and Why a Public Call Out

Clifford will always have a chance to turn these patterns around and to show up for the harm he has done. The harm he has done has thrived in secrecy and in spite of major efforts and opportunities to allow honesty and accountability to come forward. Seeing the extreme forms that his abuse is taking has made it very apparent to us that the only way to move forward is to make these experiences and processes public knowledge. We want people to know the truth and the severity of his commitment to harm, that his entire being and persona revolves around committing these harms. It won’t stop as long as his motives remain hidden.

We understand that a lot of people will be drawn toward a transformative framework and people will have to navigate that in their own ways. Years have been offered in conversation to bring awareness and understanding to what he was doing. We have already given so much space for compassion, assuming he would want to be better and do better. But the amount of intelligence that has gone into maintaining multiple lines of abuse at a time and for so long, and his precise use of emotion and the experiences of those he targets, only shows the depth of his understanding of his actions and what is at stake in his exposure. He has developed a carefully created persona that is only interested in secrecy and maintenance of that persona. The conversations and compassion offered to him just gave him space to lie and cover things up and diffuse the attention being brought against him, while giving him more opportunities of proximity to targets. Every opportunity for honesty was only met with more lying and manipulation.

He is someone that came of age within radical and queer scenes. He knows the language of these groups and how to appear relatable and safe within them. He knows how to use those reference points, his magnetism and sociability and an air of innocence to get close to people. He is endlessly harsh about those around him, holding up extreme moral standards within the leftist/radical/whatever belief systems, perpetually drawing attention to the faults of people all the while ensuring that no one feels justified in denying him anything he desires. This has repeated year after year, in multiple circles and most strongly in sexual relationships.

He hangs around enough kind people that assume a stance of compassion, who will interpret him as genuine or as trying to be a good or better person. He mirrors that when it helps and relies on forgiveness when it doesn’t or when more rash aggression shows itself. He doesn’t care about any of the things our communities put energy towards and engages with them purely to have access to sexual connections with afab(assigned female at birth) folks.

We understand that if anything changes for him to allow transformation, that has to be chosen by him. External pressure so far has done nothing to even lessen his fixations. It has only given him opportunity to develop more tools; ie. one form of accountability forced on him used as a tool and model to back his persona of safety and emotional development. We have heard story after story of him, at the least, disregarding an-other's sense of physical safety and emotional well being. But also showing genuine pleasure in the pain and discomfort he traps people in sexually and satisfaction in the experience of successfully wearing down people’s boundaries. He has even admitted to being aroused by crossing people’s boundaries.

If you are compelled or have tools you want to offer him in your process, we understand. This is a tool that we are offering you, to handle this in an informed way. We want him to show up for the work and when he decides to show up genuinely, tools will only make that easier. What ever anyone else's approach is, we have also decided for ourselves that safety requires this be a public process.

Our goal here is safety. We care about our communities and it is our deepest desire to prevent anyone from being blindsided or put at risk by him. We believe in holding responsibility for the safety of the people around us. Our lives revolve in many ways around that purpose of support and looking out for each other and most aggressively in the protection of the most intimate parts of our bodies and beings.

Read the stories

Open Letters Regarding Clifford Ludeña/Meyer

Summary of Harm

Notes on Transformative Justice and Why a Public Call Out

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